The nightmare continues. Make no mistake.

This time, all of my real-life friends and family are involved and helping. I’ve let a few online friends know what’s been going on. It makes our troubles since June seem trivial.

How bad is it…? I had gray hairs develop in a week’s time. I’m only 35.

Fuck you Poconos! I wanna go home. Carole wants to stay & fight… I want to grab what we can and run for it!

We drove in for my aunt’s wake in Glendale, Queens, yesterday. The city I swore never to set foot back in, two years ago, never seemed more beautiful… the cold steel buildings welcomed me as we crossed the Triborough Bridge.

Driving though Main Street, Flushing, the kids thought I lost my mind.

“OOH… Grafitti!!!”
“LOOK, A MUGGING!!!!”

“Lock your doors, kids…those two guys are looking to carjack someone!!!!”
” I can’t read a goddamn sign on the streets, it’s all in Korean…ain’t it great???”

The kids were terrified, and daddy was in total bliss! It all just felt…right?

But is it any different? The kids are frightened at home. Life is a nightmare in the Poconos too, with so many legal hassles… they have no security there. We left New York City to give them a better life. Yet they’re scared. They’re always scared… and it’s killing me.

I can take any punk down in the streets. Did it my whole life. I have the street savvy to survive New York City.

But I can’t fight a corrupt legal system.
Fuck you Poconos!!! I want to go home… before it’s too late.

• And you thought no one would notice….Had fun in Reno, huh?
• Congratz Matt & Kay…
• Heavy stuff tonight… forgiveness and serenity. Definite “must-reads” and compels me to contribute to these philosophical posts: Do you think they’re real?

• Cast my vote for Karl Auerbach for Board Of Directors in ICANN today. What did you guys do to make the web a better place, lately? (Kudos to The Head Lemur for keeping such an important issue in the spotlight, and for being such a good sport in a great race.)
• From my fortune cookie this afternoon: “Celebrating a party, when the villagers have all lost interest long ago, makes for a lot of wasted cake…”

Rocky’s underwear is on auction at eBay. Bidding’s picking up momentum, and getting fierce. (Hey, with Rocky, Sue and Psycho Mike plugging this website all morning on the radio, you *know* I’m gonna keep pushing this! Hey, Rocky even signed my guestbook…KEWL!!!!)

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Aw man, I SUCK!
(Via Zeldman:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEAD LEMUR!

I think we can all find some common ground in agreeing that Miz Kitty is a valuable treasure on the web. Someone whom I’ve always respected, and would feel guilty as hell if web nastiness ran her out of the blog scene again.

While I’m not one to post people’s emails in public forums, I feel one line she said to me yesterday put it best as I <whispers:> groveled for forgiveness:

“buddies? aw, heck ya…. life really is too short. ”

Now there’s a lady with class.
I *almost* learned a lesson out of this, too! :0)

Awww…. this is what it’s all about folks. Friendship & sticking together.

For those who barely care about soap operas: The next to last entry in MiScHiEf Anonymous hurt Miz Kitty’s feelings. So buddy Joe Jenett lashes out in his own wimpy way (sorry, Joe…I gag from the taste of alcohol, so being “town drunk” is rather impossible). Faith, knowing that I would never read that entry, turns the screws and spells it out for folks like me who are too dense to understand this oblique reference.

I wonder if any of these boneheads decided to check with Miz Kitty to see if I’ve apologized, before launching a new war on me? I don’t even have the fucking time for this schoolyard bullshit right now.

And you wonder why I have no respect for any of these bozos.

That’s right kiddies! Grab yourself a piece of history by bidding on WKRZ’s Rocky Rhodes’ underwear!

Psycho Mike swiped ’em and they’re up for grabs and is auctioning them on eBay. Don’t let some lunatic overseas get them!!!!! (btw, NO SKIDMARKS) Bidding starts at $1.00!!!!!!

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PS: Happy Birthday Lisa Marie O’Brien!

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Carole & I saw a dog today running around in the woods behind our house (where I buried all the family pets) we both could have sworn it was Spanky for his annual visit. (Spooky stuff, huh?).

• Who said no one is allowed to have a say in what they feel on their pages?
• Who said you can’t have some fun? I’m a big boy, I can take it. Hell, who knew you had a sense of humor?
• Let me get this straight, YOU’RE offended at being on the list of “chicks with egos” now???? Remind me what the name of your site is again? ctrl-alt-…..?????(yes, the “title” attribute works in a <B> tag, did you know that?)
• And I “started it” by posting a link to your site, and sharing my innermost thoughts in a Yahoo Club with over 500 members? Learned my lesson, it’ll never happen again.
• For the millions of you that constantly talk about me, and think I’m paranoid…STOP IT!!!! I’m not PARANOID!!!!!
• I barely take myself seriously… much less you two yutzes! I’m not playing “victim” here, I’m just too busy for a flame-war right now.I can pencil you and Jenett in for the second week of November to make your lives a living hell, okay? Best I can do…can I go back to work now…Pleeeeeeease????? It’ll be like old times again, I promise.

Gee whiz Faith… five entries about lil’ ol me in less than a week…??? I’m flattered!

Hey, when have I *ever* been afraid to speak out and stir some shit????

Actually, I made the decision to shitcan MiScHiEf Anonymous and my Yahoo Discussion early today because of that pesky reality stuff that’s been plaguing me & my family lately. While I wanted to try blogger and have some fun, it’s been proven to take up too much of my time. Blogging regularly is hard work… I give ya credit.

So pat yourself on the back, Charlie Chan! Even though everyone at Astounding Websites has known it was me for months….

How does it feel to be the last one in on the joke? Just curious. :0)